...and I'm pretty excited about it. It's a chance to share what's going on for me...so let me start with something that's been bouncing around inside my head all week.
My dad spoke on Sunday about "ReCalibrating"--getting ourselves realigned with God. (And may I say it was a great message...though I suppose I am a little biased.) One thing he mentioned fascinated me. God chose me to enjoy Him, and for Him to enjoy me. And no one else could take my place. I was created unique and special. No one else can love God in the same way I can. How awesome is that? To think that out of the billions and billions of people ever born...God wanted me. He loved who I was and what I could bring to Him. That just absolutely blows my mind. It's inspiring, really. I need to live up to all the potential God gave me, not because it's my duty, but because it's a way I can love God.
One more thought accompanies that. This means that I never have to feel like I don't measure up. (And let's face it, at fifteen, that's a big deal!) If God wanted me to have the same talent in the same amount, He would've given it to me. But instead He perfectly crafted me, giving me exactly what He wanted me to have, exactly what would make my life complete as I serve Him with it. That's awesome. I can let go of feelings of inadequacy, because God has given me exactly what is adequate! This concept has been a big struggle for me. Since one of the things God gave me was a desire for everything to be as good as it can, (a.k.a I'm sort of a perfectionist), I often feel like I need to be better...at everything. But this only messes me up. Instead, I'm learning to focus on what I have and how I can use that to God's glory. Maybe it's just me, but the thought that God created me especially, with all my quirks (and believe me, there are several!), makes me smile.
